nice quote, actualdinosaur, I hadn't seen that one before! It seems I guessed correctly, a few years ago on the DhO when someone asked me why I couldn't choose how I felt each moment, and I said I thought it had something to do with not realizing 'i' am 'my' feelings and 'my' feelings are 'me'. needless to say that thought didn't lead to said realization. but now it seems to make more sense. i think the trick is that meditating got me into the habit of trying to intuit meanings out of words. i would read words and then try to have something happen as a result. so e.g. i'd read "i" am "my" feelings and "my" feelings are "me" and then try to become the feeling, or something like that. whereas now, there's no intuitive movement of that sort, it's just a realization that what i am already feeling - without it changing whatsoever - is in fact 'me'! and that then leads to the change that goes in the direction of actuality. great stuff
'It seems all that one needs then is the pure intent to be fully happy and harmless, 'be' my feelings, and realize that now is the only moment of being alive and the rest should follow. Anyway that correspondence should be interesting nonetheless if no one has read it.'
Just remember that pure intent is not the same as 'you' nor comes from 'you', as 'you' are rotten and pure intent is... well... pure.
Yes, I have been missing the simplicity of that postulate (I am my feelings) as well. Really spent some time looking at that today in context of how I speak internally too -I am definately disassociated within 'myself' regarding *thinking* as 'me', and then my feelings, as MY feelings (belonging to the thinking ME) -rather than the totality of 'me'.
And it makes logical sense too; if one wasn't feeling despondent (for example), one would not be thinking the thoughts one is, so it follows without the feeling there are no thoughts related to that feeling. And as 'i' sense myself to be those very thoughts; hey presto! 'i' would cease to 'exist'. Of course 'i' don't exist to start with as can be seen with an honest look 'inside' -there are only feelings and thoughts, there is no central I at all!
If only seeing that would of ended it, I would have been 'done' 2 years ago!
Post by actualdinosaur on May 26, 2013 17:56:00 GMT
Oh I must have typed the pure in front of the intent by accident...It was supposed to just read "intent to be happy and harmless" (come what may). All of that should get one to experience the actual pure intent. Thanks for pointing it out Felipe.